Crushed.

Today had band. It was fun. But my section got screwed and chewed.

Anyways, end of band was the time most events happened. I know what's going on, I just like to act slow and dumb and annoying. I know I know I know! I like to pretend I don't know anything so at least I know how to deal with people teasing him(B) about me.

A was trying to make B jealous by coming near me and flirting around, purposely but jokingly. A and B had a mini quarrel but i dind't bother to hear. My first time when people compete over me. I hate it. friends will be friends and they are friends. I dunno if theyre kidding outside and really wanna box each other inside. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno. I wanna noe though. So I shall ask them. I shall try.

I really dun mean to perasan but I hate this alot. I really do. I know, but I dunno. Confusing, but true.

A gd friend of mine whom I've helped yesterday, has agreed to help me. He's a guy so he noes better about this kinda things. He had girl probs so he asked me haha. He's helped me to sort em out from his point of view. Boys usually share the same point of view and I like his point of view.


I've never felt this way before. It's been so long since I've been crushing on somebody so much. I've forgotten how to react. I've resumed my ways of blogging only about that person. I've resumed to becoming that person whom I used to be, and who I am hates who i've been :P

I like contradicting myself to see which side is stronger. then I'll follow the stronger side.

I find myself dumb. Shit.

ciao!